Let’s Talk It Over

Talk

N I’m really defeated this time around
That I don’t know what to say,
Defeated by life, defeated by you
Hope you’ll return someday.

I’m sorry to have hurt you
To have spoken those dreaded words
Please answer back I really miss you
We’re one in two separate worlds..

Your presence still lingers around the house,
I’m still loving you inside my mind
I ain’t perfect like you but still hope you’ll love me-
‘Coz I know true love is blind

You’re still my only best friend
N I’ll always be your crazy lover
N my love for you will never die
Come back home, let’s talk it over…

I can hear the vacant bedside calling
The sheets dying to be wrinkled.
The distant starts seem to be sad too
‘Coz they don’t shine the way they twinkled

The sheets and pillows still smell our sweat
Still soaked with the expressions of our love-
I can’t let go and I want more
‘Coz I haven’t had enough..

Up above in the night sky
Like my guiding star you hover
We’ve played enough now come down baby
C’mon let’s talk it over.

God knows what I’d give to feel your touch
To feel you head laying down on my chest,
To hear you breathe while you sleep
To put your worried mind to rest.

I don’t wanna miss a moment
So I’ll watch you over while you sleep,
N I swear on my life you can trust me honey
I’ll be the place for you secrets to keep.

So won’t you come back to me precious, it’s getting late
It’s time we go under cover-
Let’s forgive and love again
C’mon let’s talk it over..

My Battle against Destiny

People say that you don’t have to be the way you are. You don’t have to fight yourself and subdue your free will all the time. Just to be better than what you are today, just to be perfect. What to do? May be someone can just tell them that I engage in these futile battles with myself because I feel I have not been who I was meant to be. It could be because things don’t go as planned or maybe I lacked in my attempts. So I fight, my battle against destiny.

I keep on running, faster my pace gets, but they keep on saying “you can’t stop destiny”. Which makes me think what if this truly is a scheme and all of it conspires. Because if it is, no matter where I go I’ll run into it.

But then once I read in a book that “life is full of miracles” and “You need to fight in pursuit of your dreams, aspirations, wishes. And once you overcome your defeats, in the silence of your hearts you know that. It’s just that you need to believe.”

And then again, I keep pushing myself and my boundaries all over again to change the course. Change from what was destined to what I feel is right. Maybe when I start feeling right in my shoes, I can be happier than I am. I can be better than I am right now. And if that happens, if my journey ends right, then that day I can proudly say to myself that the battles I fought were not futile and all that I lost and gave away was not in vain.

 

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