Let’s Talk It Over

Talk

N I’m really defeated this time around
That I don’t know what to say,
Defeated by life, defeated by you
Hope you’ll return someday.

I’m sorry to have hurt you
To have spoken those dreaded words
Please answer back I really miss you
We’re one in two separate worlds..

Your presence still lingers around the house,
I’m still loving you inside my mind
I ain’t perfect like you but still hope you’ll love me-
‘Coz I know true love is blind

You’re still my only best friend
N I’ll always be your crazy lover
N my love for you will never die
Come back home, let’s talk it over…

I can hear the vacant bedside calling
The sheets dying to be wrinkled.
The distant starts seem to be sad too
‘Coz they don’t shine the way they twinkled

The sheets and pillows still smell our sweat
Still soaked with the expressions of our love-
I can’t let go and I want more
‘Coz I haven’t had enough..

Up above in the night sky
Like my guiding star you hover
We’ve played enough now come down baby
C’mon let’s talk it over.

God knows what I’d give to feel your touch
To feel you head laying down on my chest,
To hear you breathe while you sleep
To put your worried mind to rest.

I don’t wanna miss a moment
So I’ll watch you over while you sleep,
N I swear on my life you can trust me honey
I’ll be the place for you secrets to keep.

So won’t you come back to me precious, it’s getting late
It’s time we go under cover-
Let’s forgive and love again
C’mon let’s talk it over..

I Ain’t A Liar

I Ain't a Liar

You said you were here to stay
That you’ll be by my side come the judgement day
But you couldn’t hold on to your words, for better or worse
Made me feel like this love was more of a curse..

Still I stood through
Waited for you
Hoping someday you’ll realize
The love and longing in these eyes
Holding on to the memories
That seemed more like a pack of lies.

And so this heart burns-
Like an old house on fire
But unlike what you think of me
I ain’t a liar..

These eyes bleed, and turn to stone
As I stand here waiting, all alone.
With the setting sun, my desperation’s rising higher
Just wanna let you know-
I ain’t a liar.

What about all the songs
You said you’d sing to me
The sights that we were gonna see,
The times that were meant-
Just for you and me
The stories we had to share,
Do you even care?

‘Coz you go on
Don’t even look back,
Leaving behind just the broken pieces-of my castle of glass
Turning me into a wreck.

My bedside kept calling for you to lay
But you didn’t come to my dismay,
I never meant no harm
You fell for petty strangers and their foolish charms.

And so this heart burns
Like and old house on fire
But unlike what you think of me
I ain’t a liar.

These eyes bleed and turn to stone
As I stand here waiting, all alone
With the setting sun, my desperation’s rising higher
You’d never admit but I know-
I ain’t a liar..

 

Photograph-@sisodia.pankaj

My Ballad of Love

My Ballad of Love

Sunk in my chair
Wondering what to do
Thought I’d write
But all I can think of is you
Trying to find some words
I decide to change the view

So I turn my chair the other way round
Now I can see outside my window
From the sky to the ground
The picture in my eyes leaves me spellbound

Nor heaven or hell has been at peace tonight
Seems like the gods are up for a fight
In this dark, mysterious land-
Hey…!! I call out..someone throw me a light.

Could someone tell me
What’s going on
Why is it raining in holy March
Why do the winters seem to go on and on…??

The clouds seem dark and laden with rain
Like a broken heart oozing with pain
Thunder they strike every now and then
The way hell struck me-dunno how and when

I keep standing alone underneath these skies
Trying to make out, the truth from the lies
The truth that’ll lead me
To your beautiful eyes.

The rain keeps falling
My tears keep rolling
Oh can’t you hear me baby
My heart is calling..

Yes I need you
I need you baby
My mind is dead
My heartbeat’s crazy
I’ve got my words on the ledge
Just need a shove
Come and lend your voice baby
To my ballad of love

These words I think
I’ve got them to rhyme
Just like the two of us
They’ll get better with time

On this old paper
My words lie burning
Picking up new meanings
As my thoughts keep churning
In my lonely presence
I hear them yearning-
They yearn for music
They yearn for voice
All we can do is wait for you
Got no choice..

And so the rain keeps falling
My tears keep rolling
Oh can’t you hear me baby
My heart is calling..

Yes I need you-
I need you baby
My mind is dead
My heartbeat’s crazy

I’ve got my words on the ledge
Just need a shove
Come and lend your voice baby
To my ballad of love.

I’ve waited all my life
Will wait for one more
You’re the only one I’ll ever love
That’s one thing for sure

No matter if the sky falls down
Don’t care if the earth sinks in
I’ll wait by your house in my car
Hoping someday you’ll climb in
‘Coz my heart’s the place you reside
It’s where you’ve always been..

The lamp’s still burning
My head keeps on turning
Bruised words keep bleeding out
As I’m still hurting

And so the rain keeps falling
My tears keep rolling
Oh can’t you hear me baby
My heart is calling

Yes I need you-
I need you baby
My mind is dead
My heartbeat’s crazy

I’ve got my words on the ledge,
Just need a shove
Come and lend your voice baby
To MY BALLAD OF LOVE…..

 

Photograph-@sisodia.pankaj